What is this feeling?

As I mentioned the first time I read through the Book of Mormon it took me about 8 days. Being the perfectionist that I am the second time through should take me no longer. Or so I thought. The reason I was able to read so much in so little time was because I had hours upon hours to read while I was at work. The last two weeks were a bit busier therefor I didn't finish in my "set perfect" deadline. As I read, I began to feel anxious and upset like I was doing something wrong. During a particular difficult and busy night I was so fed up I didn't want to read anymore. I was ready to throw in the towel. Thankfully I remembered to pray and ask for peace and comfort. I heard the quiet whisperings of the Spirit tell me that those are not the feelings I am supposed to feel while reading the Scriptures. That I wasn't reading so I could make some deadline. I was reading so I could learn more about the Nephites and Lamanites. I was reading so I could learn about their pride cycles and how quickly one can turn away from the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I was reading so I could learn how their ups and downs resemble my ups and downs. I needed to slow down and learn. Listen and learn. The feelings I was feelings were of Satan and not of Heavenly Father. I am thankful for this experience for a couple of reasons.

I need to live in the now and to take in the feelings and promptings of the Spirit. I can't do that if I am rushing through trying to meet some deadline I set. I am likely to miss certain lessons and experiences if I am always running and speeding through my life. God has a plan for me it is important that I follow His plan. I believe He wants us to plan for ourselves and to make goals, but I need to focus more on what I am learning and be willing to bend when my way doesn't work. Am I focusing more on the process than the meaning. I became as one of the Jews who lived the Law of Moses to the letter of the law and not the spirit. I made rules that were unnecessary and contrary to the spirit of why I was reading in the first place.

I began today reading the third time focusing on Christ and the Atonement. I only read the first 11 verses of 1st Nephi. I am OK with that. I took it slow, I listened and I learned. Specifically about the Tree of Life. Every time I read about it I learn more and more. I remembered today that there were many who partook of the fruit and were ashamed so they turned away. The world is a scary, shallow, and evil place today. I need the Gospel and the love of Christ more than ever before. I am thankful for the Scriptures who remind me of who I am.